Saturday, December 31, 2005

Sodom and Gomorrah.. Mardi Gras AND New Years?

I feel like I've spent the better part of my life lately on an airplane. *laugh* We're in Atlanta (or "hotlanta" as our endearing double wide stewardess (pardon.. air waitress...or something.. hostess...er...) preferred to call it. Seems like a nice city, newer and shinier than D.C. - definately nouveau ugly architecture.
We're still not sure what we're going for New Years Eve, though a "Mardi Gras" type party has been suggested. Pardon me while I conjure images of hundreds of rowdy football fans showing their mid-west boobies while the ball drops. Funny.

Better Than Divorced Parents

Hello all.. made it to D.C. safe and sound, have been thouroughly enjoying myself. Had my 2nd Christmas, this one with Bryan - it was wonderful. I got too many beautiful gifts, including a stunning (stunning) Tiffany's bracelet. *sigh* I only take it off to shower.. and then it sits within sight on the counter. Bryan was too generous and wonderful - (shameless plug) - and it's been wonderful.
We've gone out for dinner a couple times - to Raku and to Sushi Taro - both absolutely amazing. I've developed a strange affinity for raw tuna, green onions, and raw beef - not all in one dish.. though that probably wouldn't be too bad. Hmm..
I'm enjoying D.C., as always - the weather is lovely, the shopping amazing - I never want to leave. *smile* That is.. until we go to Georgia.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Music to Take a Plane and Leave a Lover To.

  1. Lovers Spit – Broken Social Scene I’m a big airport crier. Sobbing, sniffling, wailing. After hospitals and graveyards, I bet airports have the highest per square inch count of tears. I love those sorrowful sobby tear wet kisses at departure gates. Hence this song.
  2. Caring is Creepy – The Shins
    I only ever listen to a snippit of this one. It’s a good slow – mo walk away and wipe your eyes song. Oo, and a good one to glare at couples who can’t POSSIBLY be sadder than you to.
  3. Changes Are No Good – The Stills
    This one is pretty self-explanatory. If you want to leave.. you shouldn’t be listening to this play list.
  4. The Police and The Private – Metric
    That brief moment where you’re contemplating rushing back through security and having that 360 degree kiss where the credits come up. In happier movies.
  5. In the Waiting Line – Zero 7
    I just realised that in all my leaving/travelling/airport fantasies, everything moves in slow motion and I’ve got great long hair that bounces when I walk. Well. Hand over your passport and boarding card and smile sadly to this one. Cry in the jetway.
  6. Leavin’ On a Jet Plane – Mos Def
    Come now. Can you really fault me? At least this is an amazing hip-hop version. Of course, more suitable when you’re leaving Brooklyn over Vienna or Washington, but cuts the sadness all the same.
  7. Passport Radio – Broken Social Scene
    Without a word of a lie, I listen to this when I find my seat, and the world, my heartslows down. Everyone moves in time to the soft horn. Watch the stewardess do the seat belt speech to this. It’s never been more beautiful. Oh.. but listen too… fix your mask first, don’t help anyone else.
  8. Emergency Exit –Beck
    This is a super turbulence and dodge the drink cart song. Watch out, you’ll be tapping your neighbour’s seat in front of you.
  9. Straighten Up and Fly Right – Natalie Cole
    Right. So the song is ACTUALLY about a monkey and a buzzard. But in the musical version of my life we dance down the aisles and sashay out of luggage compartments in red pillbox hats holding silver tea pots. Straighten up Captain.
  10. So I’ll Sit Here Waiting – The Like
    Because that’s what you basically do for 2-17 hours in the air. Sit, and wait to land. And in the meantime, drink what you can and sleep when you can’t drink. Right.
  11. Car Wheels on a Gravel Road – Lucinda Williams
    We are talking about airplanes.. but you have to get home from the airport. This is one of my all time favourite travel songs. Bryan and I listened to it on the way to Rajasthan a million times, given that we could never REALLY figure out how to switch the tape sides once the car had turned on and off.

**Disclaimer - I pretend my life is a slightly romantic, deeper meaning, Palme D'Or winning event, complete with gritty yellow slides and many departure gates. If this does not work for you, this playlist may not either.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas

Have a lovely day friends. Hope Santa brings you everything your heart desires.
Love to you and yours.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

And Sane.

I spent the afternoon with my friend Mukesh at the jewellery shop, and I feel.. sane. We sat there, over the same harsh cigarettes and sweet tea that will always exist in our world and his office, and chatted for hours. The shop filled and emptied and the sun went down and I think my brain changed shape a little, or maybe just perspective, or maybe just colors, like they do in the movies when they put those awful blue filters on everything or the warm gritty yellow ones. He has this amazing way of grounding me, of making me actually sit there and talk and be honest and look him in the eye instead of that awful half talk that we give everyone, where we’re actually thinking about grocery lists and our minds are millions of miles away in the Safeway ethic food aisle and we never actually listen.. Do we? And I can’t even look at jewellery, I curl up in his chairs that never look like they’ll be comfortable but seem to be made for you and take off my shoes and put my tea cup on my feet to keep them warm, even though the cigarette smoke makes my face hot it never seems to warm up any other part of me. And he makes you tell the truth if you want his advice or his stories (which are wild and smart and terribly useful) and it’s awful and silly and painful to do what we should always do. And something about the cigarette smoke and tea and boxes of gold and silver and jewels insulates me from everything else for a couple hours, until I feel like I’m wiser and stronger and taller and….sane.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Damn My Sensitive Nose

There is a toss up you make when you breathe in India. Nose – smell it, get it stuck in your nose, your lungs; mouth – taste it, chew it, want to vomit. Each particular smell and each particular person has their preference. I, for instance, would much rather taste rotting vegetables than raw sewage. *shrug*

There are these amazing moments where you can’t believe that anything ever smelled bad in this country. I wondered through the Tibetan market yesterday, getting my hands covered in dust and dirt, getting the word “ancient” under my fingernails. And I walked out of this one little shop, my favourite, “Dolma 19” (the little Tibetan lady is so old I’m sure she has the history of the world written inside the wrinkles of her face) … and there was this smell. I know it’s dorky, but you’ve all peeled an orange. And you know that smell that you get on your fingertips, when you get orange under your nails and your fingers are a little sticky? It was like that. Just drifting through the air, this amazing, 3rd grade snack smell.
Of course, among the diesel and rotting vegetables and sewage and feet, it didn’t last for long. But it was there, however brief and beautiful and strange.

Monday, December 19, 2005

English Fruhstuck in Vienna.. Rocks.

My jet lag has almost worn off, and the craving for lasagne for breakfast is slowly subsiding. (Though the fact that there WAS lasagne available for breakfast this morning didn’t help). I’m so happy to be home, and not just because it took more than a day to get here.

The flight was easier than I expected, in fact, it was sort of like a mini-vacation on its own. Austrian Airlines was just lovely – the food was amazing, and my brother never eats his desserts. What more could a girl ask for? Oh yeah, the really great free red wine (free) that came around every ½ hour (free) and made the flight infinitely easier. (free.)

Vienna looked like Saskatchewan, but with castles, and Mozart and Strauss’ face on everything from shot glasses to bathroom tiles. The majority of their exports seem to be in truffles and liquor, which is ok with me. We had this amazing breakfast in the sunshine – eggs and bread with jam and marmalade and fresh squeezed orange juice, and the best cup of coffee that I’ve ever had in my life. Upon commenting that everyone also appeared to be drinking beer at 9 in the morning (pish) my brother brought me back to earth (and humility) by saying he too was thinking of having one – and honestly, so was I. Unfortunately, since they still allow smoking.. well… everywhere, we couldn’t stand it long enough. They have these great “smoking zones” in little corners with a circle around it and a slow moving fan. Yeah. Considering those little corners are filled with a microcosm of Eastern European habitants (see: Russian woman in Gold Lame, Chanel purse and Prada heels, Russian man in wrinkles, empty pockets and leather jacket, French woman in navy and gold and well plucked eyebrows, Austrian in non-existent blond eyebrows and ski jacket…) all of whom smoke – we passed on the beer.

Our waitress was the sweetest – the menu was in.. Austrian?... for everything but dinner, so we begged a translation off of her. It was quite endearing, if not helpful. “It’s English breakfast, you know, with farfenkuckle, sorry, I don’t know English word, and squeezed ormenlageren, you know, with cofelensmacken, and…eggs.” Oh excellent. Can I have extra butter? (sidebar – don’t use my translation either. I was on my umpteenth glass of red wine at this point – not included, sadly, in the breakfast menu).

We arrived in Delhi.. gosh.. 2 nights ago now. It’s just as I remember it in the winter – smoky and cold, which luckily dissipates the smell of shit quite effectively. Though the fact remains that the smoke around the slums smells decidedly un-burning tire or paper like. Reduce Reuse and Recycle India.

My family is well – it seems like the older I get, the less I’m home.. the smaller my parents seem to get. It gets easier and easier to just wrap my mother in my arms, my brother can lift her up now. My mother stayed up late with my time-addled brother and I to catch up and chat – I’ve missed her so much. Problems and discussions I’ve been wanting to have for months get taken care of in a few words, she’s so wonderful. I was up late, the effect of too many coffees, too much red wine, or just plain excitement.

We traveled into Old Delhi early the next day – I love it so much there. I find the longer that I’m here, the more often I visit…the harder it is to look India in the eye. I find that I look above India, into the windows, or down, into the dirt…Because if I look everyone in the face, I want to cry – for what I can’t do, for what I won’t do, and for what will never be done for this place. I’ve been here long enough to see it limpingly change – more women drive, more blue jeans, more short hair – and I laud these things like honest indicators of change and evolution. But really – there are just as many poor and broken and sick people as their always was – they’re just wearing more cast off blue jeans. But it helps, right? To tell yourself that somebody else must be changing things. I think that if I don’t do that, I might have to learn that nothing is changing. And I’m too much of a coward to do that.

Old Delhi, as usual, was teeming with a million (or what always seems like the entire 1.4 billion population of India) people, everyone apparently deciding that the street was going the wrong way. We walked in from Canary Bazaar across from Red Fort. I’m always surprised that we don’t get horribly lost (or murdered, raped and pillaged) in the millions of alleys and shops and men constantly farting and readjusting their packages. I’m decidedly a shorter person in Canada, I feel like a giant here, a giant just enough at boob level to ask “Are you trying to look me in the eye and this is as high as you can get?” To which the answer is invariably no, they’re just looking at my boobs and readjusting their packages.

I’m spending the day today with my little sister, shopping and exploring. I never get to visit the Museum of Modern Art while I’m here, so I’m going to steal the driver this afternoon and run away there for a couple hours. The time is going so quickly – ten days will never be enough here. A lifetime would never be enough. Off for some cofelensmacken. Love you all.

Better Late Than Never...

Alright – believe it or not, I’m writing these high above the ocean (an ocean, at this point don’t ask which one) on my way to Vienna with my brother. Yeah, that sounds a lot more mysterious and adventurous than it really is – we’re just on our way home for Christmas. But hey, after the past little while, I’ll take even some implied excitement.

So I’ve been a little bit of a dead beat blogger as of late – I didn’t even wrap up my trip to West Virginia. I’ve got the usual excuses (school, exams, boyfriend.. did I mention I got a job? ) but really – I just suck. So I figured, since I’m a worse e-mailer than I am blogger – it would be best to keep posting here and let you know what I’m up to this holiday season.

As mentioned (making it sound a lot more like an adored bohemian run away than college student going home) I’m on my way to Vienna to stop over, then to India to see the folks. We’re flying Austrian airlines (nobody could deal with Air Canada any more) - the food is good and the passengers are hilarious. I don’t know if this is a big connecting airline, but there are enough German mafiosos on this plane to fill.. well.. Germany. It cracks me up. They’re all wearing black leather jackets and look like they were in Toronto for the Godfather Convention or something.

After India for 10 days, I’m back into Toronto, then D.C. to see Bryan. It will be our first (albeit late) Christmas together – wow. It’s been almost a year that we’ve been dating now – how is that possible? It seems like just yesterday I met him at a cocktail party, and now it’s our first Christmas and anniversary. From D.C. we go to Atlanta, Georgia, to the Sugar Bowl. I’m pretty excited to tell the truth – I’ve never been down to that part of the states. We’re meeting Bryan’s best friend there – I can’t wait.

We’re in D.C. for a few more days after Georgia, then back to Edmonton – with Bryan! He’ll be staying with me for 12 days – I’m so excited. Granted, I will be back in school, but it will be wonderful just to have him there.

Right – so I got a job, working at the pub across the street – Ceili’s. It’s a nice, quiet little place, good money, nice customers. Not to much more to say about it than that – I’m not sure how long I’ll stick with it, I like being in school and NOT working so much, I have to say. We’ll see how it goes. The tips are good, and tax free – but I’m pretty content just reading and studying. I’m going to found a chapter of Dorks Anonymous.

A quick close to my trip to West Virginia – I fell in love with it, willy –nilly deer carcases and all. It’s beautiful, the people are wonderful, I fell head over heels in love with Bryan’s family – it was wonderful. We shopped the Super Wal-Mart on Black Friday (the busiest shopping day of the year in the States – does any find it funny that it corresponds with Buy Nothing Day in Canada?) played with the nieces, Sonya – Bryan’s mom – helped me brush up on my knitting.. I loved it. We went up to his wonderfully romantic Grandparent’s farm and shot rifles and pistols and walked about the farm – I never wanted to leave. It was so wholesome and sweet and honest. *sigh* Laugh all you want. I’m seriously considering pitching a tent out there and never coming home. The fact that I gained 7 pounds in 3 days also helped – it’s a land of plenty, that’s for sure.
Will update later - red wine is here - love you all.