I don't know if it's just because I'm feeling pessimistic, or if Laura is right and this has been a bitch of a week, or because I actually have the RIGHT to feel grumpy and unloved and un-showered with kindness.. Or that as I'm typing this I realise I have a totally great couple of friends and an amazing family.. but this week.. sucked.
It seems like at every turn I had somebody complaining and whining and sick and mental at my door, in my inbox, on MSN, on the voicemail, plus layer upon layer of homework and reading and class and deadlines... It never ended. I want to be a good person, and I want to take care of them all, I want to get my assignments done and I need to go to class - but what happened to bringing a girl flowers, to saying thanks, to helping out? Now, I know that there are exceptions to this in my life (see - Ian, Laura, my brother) but as of late, it feels like the negative has overwhelmed the positive with amazing force and determination. My paltry complaints of having thighs that jiggle and jackass "friends" seem kind of... paltry. But don't you occasionally want to tell people to buck up and get a life? I've decided that I'm going to weed out the people in my life that contribute nothing and take everything, for once I'm going to take my own advice. I'm downsizing like Ford. There are people that no matter what the situation, always seem to take so much more from me than I have to offer, nevermind the fact that I needed something. I'm sure there is a witty psychological name for them. We'll go with Takers. (This does not assume I am a Giver. Do not make that mistake. ;-) So here I go. Weeding.
Given that I don't live in the West Bank, nor do I have a cleft palate and my name isn't Honey, I realise fully that I don't have a lot to complain about. It could be worse, I could be Danish. But damn it, I want flowers. And 21 red balloons and a bottle of good champagne. Is that so damn much to ask?
1 comment:
I totally agree with you on the friend take!
I fully believe that there are people who are only meant to be in your life a certain amount of time, they serve a purpose and then they move on.
I began to "downsize" a few years ago. There were just too many people sucking too much time and effort out of my life that I was not getting anything from. It sounds like a cold way to put it...but that's how it is.
I now have a few very cloe friends that and a husband that make my life very complete. I wish all of those who have touched my life no harm, I just think that sometimes you need to move on.
I am sure if you do this you will begin to feel better and a little more well rounded.
Good Luck
:)
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