The incredibly loneliness has been.. incredible. The feeling of living in this weird bubble where I'm not really being hugged, not really being touched, not really being with anybody. That nothing is coming into this bubble, that the lonliness inside and outside is equalized by being in this bubble, and if it burst I would explode. And I've been running from class to class, event to event, concert to concert, meeting to meeting.. trying to ignore the fact that I am so incredibly sad.
I went out last night with Ian, and who knew, but the combo of sushi, "The Science of Sleep", Jason Collett, Ridley Bent, and Red Stripe, disolves bubbles. Well, I'm sure the fact that I cried (into my Red Stripe) for one of the first times helped. Ian.. thank you. For being there, for wiping my tears, for making me laugh, for making me feel like all the reasons that I wasn't loved are all the reasons you love me.
I went out last night with Ian, and who knew, but the combo of sushi, "The Science of Sleep", Jason Collett, Ridley Bent, and Red Stripe, disolves bubbles. Well, I'm sure the fact that I cried (into my Red Stripe) for one of the first times helped. Ian.. thank you. For being there, for wiping my tears, for making me laugh, for making me feel like all the reasons that I wasn't loved are all the reasons you love me.
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I'm always here when you need a hug...
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