First Cold

It's the feeling of
water so hot, it feels
first cold
up my spine and
making my heart
clench.
I think my throat closes
anticipating the flood
of tears
breaking levies of
valves swelling
and arteries.
Water so hot, it feels
first cold
flooding in my blood
stream - ing
clenching
curling muscles, constricting forcing
cauterized tear ducts
empty with water and anger
so hot, it feels
first cold.