Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Cherry Pickin' the Cherry Pickin' Photos







1. Me in the back of the Subaru travelling down BC with Matt and Holz - my god it was packed to the brim.
2.Holly and I enticing the ducks at the beach across from the orchard.. Matt and I were crying we were laughing so hard giving all the ducks french voices and pretending they were the foreign legion coming to attack us while we ate salmon and drank wine.
3. A larger view of the lake - this is about the time of night we were there, and the water was still perfect to be in.
4. I caught one of those tricky french ducks, and all he did was look at me. He was soft. I liked him. I let him go because I thought his family would miss him.
5. Me in a cherry tree (as you can see) trying to make my 2.50$
6. Home sweet home.. Yup. Now picture maybe 8 more rows like this, all french people, 4 toilets and 3 showers. My god.

Anthro Smash Up


Wearing - Jeans, 50/50 t-shirt from american apparel.. (yeah, its dirty), goodwill jeans, limonade chucks, cardigan, blue scarf

Eating - Nothing. I've got a cold bottle of water.

Listening to- The really annoying girl across from me at the library talk about real estate prices. Watching - My e-mail for when my mom responds to me.

Just finished my anthro exam, which I've apparently studied way too hard for. I finished it in 20 of the allotted 60 minutes, after going over it twice. I have a sneaking suspicion that it was the first exam any of these kids have ever written, and they were going at a snails pace. *laughing* It was funny. Which is mean. But it kinda was. *laughing* I have my socio midterm on thursday, then I'm done for a bit, which makes me happy. I have to dig into the Machiavelli essay this weekend, since it's a long weekend, in the hopes I can get it over and done with in a less than painful manner. Which, of course, is impossible. *sigh* Oh well. Ok, into my socio class and then home for a little nap. Jared and I stayed up last night watching the Daily Show and doing bulletin boards at mach speed, so I'm a little sleepy. What else is new. Hhehehe..

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Half and Half

Watching - Dirty Sexy Money
Listening - Caribou's "Andorra" album on commercials
Eating - Starbucks decaf Cinnamon Dolce Latte frappuccino
Wearing - Grey sweats with the ankles pulled up mid calf, slate blue american apparel 50/50 t-shirt, grey cardigan, ponytail

Funny weekend - studying, social contracts, movies, music, death news, coffee, cigarettes, coffee, coffee, it's never ending.. *sigh*
Had a wonderful weekend. Lay in bed with Jared for far too short a time, and enjoyed every second of it, the short ones too. He has this bed with navy sheets, and this cowboyish jean bedspread thats been worn soft and heavy, one white pillow, the other a pink and green one from my sheet set.. It's so comfortable. Usually I hate sleeping here, but this weekend I can't seem to sleep at my house, I can't get comfortable or warm or happy... But here, for some odd reason, I can, and really well. It's.. nice. It makes Jared happy that I'm here. I think. I hope. *laugh*
He's out smoking shisha with the other drummers, and I'm working at Poli/Phil stuff and listening to new music. The new Caribou album is amazing, and makes me move in slow motion. *sigh* Happy - or on the verge.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Studying Away Saturday



Listening - Georgie James - "Cake Parade"
Watching - French cartoons on TV Cinque
Wearing - Black yoga pants and black hoodie, ninja boots, no make up
Eating - Lots of water, timmies coffee and the insides of a pizza pop
Thinking - Heidegger is really hard.
I'm hanging out in Jared's room for the day while he's at school, practicing. I'm studying my painfully easy and ridiculous Anthro text, and trying to muddle through some Heideggar. Just relaxing. I miss Jared, and am a little lonely. Even when he's here lately I'm a little lonely.. not sure why. Sometimes I feel like there are a million people around me and I can't connect with anyone.
Went to an art class on Thursday with Ian - a silkscreening class. Had a blast, made two raelly lovely prints that I'm going to post later. Went for a drink at Tzin after, a beautiful glass of red. It helped. Sometimes laughing at ridiculous things and getting your hands dirty in paint just...helps.

Pictures From The Past Two Weeks





Thursday, September 27, 2007

The Lovers


Really? I was missing something.

Thursday, a sad prelude to Friday.


Listening - The Way I Am- Ingrid Michealson
Wearing - Brown sweater, blue jeans, green and silver ring, no shoes
Watching - The crane outside my office window, building the million dollar condos across from my slums.
Eating - Gluten free ginger snaps and water
Thinking - Whatever happened to mixtapes?
You know, I don't think my glass is half empty. I think my glass just got too big and now I might as well do a burlesque routine in it rather than make a to do list. WHich is what my mother always suggests at this point, when I have so much to do that I just lay in bed and do nothing at all. Make a list, not a burlesque routine. Which generally makes it worse (not making a list). Go figure. So I'm hanging out in my office going from Facebook to Facehunter to Coolhunter to blogger.. *laughing* Which makes me feel efficient. In a paralelle universe, I'm probably doing a whole lot actually.
The upside? I've now got 2 A+ from my hottie McHotProff. I'm dyin' here. He's also teaching my philosophy of Love and Sex class next semester, where he is seriously considering entering the Marquis de Sade into the curicculem. I will have to withdraw. If I have to listen to him reading that I might actually just explode into a supernova of embarrassment and giggles. I could barely contain myself when he repeated the phrase "erection of the state" in my poli phil class. I wasn't the only one. But de Sade? I'm toast. Buttered toast.
I've got an art class tonight, going out with Halls and the ladies tomorrow night for V's birthday, Saturday Jared's gone by 9, I have a mental health inservice to attend on Sunday, and Monday is a midterm. *laugh*
Fuck cups. I need a beer stein.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Lady Machiavelli Isn't Very Nice Either

It seems like I have a million and one things to say until I sit down at this god-forsaken piece of crap. Or that I have been things to do. Which I don't. I usually just fall asleep and am mean to Jared when he gets home. I'm a wench this past week. I'm pretty sure I called my mom so I had somebody to make me feel better and then realised it was probably just so I had somebody to be mean to and complain at. Not even to. I'm a wretch. And I need to fall down the stairs or something. *sigh*

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Saturday, September 22, 2007

ha.


Facebook for the Elite

A small world? Yeah. And a freakin' expensive small world at that.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Drain(ing) Days


Listening: Jared practicing the drums
Wearing: Jeans, my communist party t-shirt, grey cardigan
Eating: Jared took me on a date to Brits for a deep fried Mars bar
Drinking: Strongbow
Watching: Meercat Manor
Oh tragedy. Jared and I bought a goldfish the other day, named him Herbert, and had to flush the poor dead thing 4 hours later. That's pretty much been a theme the past few days now that my mom went home! It was so nice having her here.. To have tea, to sit, to chat, to just not have to worry. I miss her, and forgot how wonderful she really was. Not truly forgot, but forgot in the way that only proximity can remind you.
Went to yoga last night swearing that I was going to keep up my excersising momentum and start on the "Quest to have Andrea fit in last semester's jeans"... and failed miserably today. Jared got up at 7, I got up at 7:15, went back to bed at 7:17 and didn't go to the gym. Instead I worked on menial tasks until my class at 2, which I enjoyed thouroughly then went to the Massage Students program and talked my way into 3 massages. Made Jared dinner, went on a date.. and still haven't gone to the gym. AND ate a deep fried mars bar. And have a meeting at 10. Shit.
Oh, and I got my period. Fuck it. Bring on the Mars bars.

Avarice-alicious

So we've had this enormous "royalty review" process happening here in Alberta. Apparently, somebody thinks that we're not making quite as much money as we should be in the oil field, and we're not charging enough, (36% too little apparently!) for Exxon and friends to be extracting our oil.
Now, I'm sorry, but who exactly is not making enough money here? Fort Mac has the richest homeless people in the world (they can't expand half as fast as they need to, so guys are making $300,000 a year and living in tents) a girl like me can go up there and make good money for god's sake. And yet, apparently our poor, poor province (who sent out a 400$ check to each of it's tax paying citizens a couple years back because we just had TOO much money in the provincial coffers) has realised that it could be making billions more.
The problem? The oil companies have said, sure, you're midline. We don't pay too much, we don't pay too little, to get your oil. But if you put those royalties up, you can sure as hell believe that we'll find somewhere else to get our tea. So shocked were they, that they called us.. *gasp* socialists! (Um.. haven't we been calling ourselves that for years?) I just think it's unbelievable.
Actually, scratch that. It's just SO believable. That's whats shocking. I hope they leave in a rush and our economy plummets. Maybe I'll get that one bedroom loft that I want for less than $455, 000 - and it'll be cheap to heat too.

You Should Go.


Tuesday, September 18, 2007

The Truth

"...only the one who draws the knife gets Isaac." - Kierkegaard

Friday, September 14, 2007

This Is What Happens


When you take my brother and I to Costco.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Philosophy is hard and painful.

"Not only in the commercial world but in the realm of ideas, our age is holding a veritable clearance sale." - Kierkegaard
"Thow in morals, and I'd say we're having a fire sale." - Lorkovic, my phil proff.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

My room in the evening light.


It makes me happy to have two windows.

This is so ghetto.


Nice tape job. It's the only way to label these god-forsaken cd's. Sheesh.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Ewwww.

For somebody who wants to be skinny, I just downed a Pilsner and ate a Pizza pop really fast. I should never be left alone in a boys room for long. And I want to start a band called Les Sads.

Sunday Eve


Wearing - brown sweater, jeans.. another pair of Jared's socks.
Reading - The new Nylon mag
Listening "MoneyMaker" - Rilo Kiley
Eating - blonde oreos and water
I really really should be reading, getting ahead for my phil classes. Instead I'm stuck in la la land reading fashion mags that make me feel fat and eating shitty food that makes me ACTUALLY fat. Jared's out with Kye doing God knows what at either a bar or a shisha place. My computer is in the shop, I have no tv, and I can't swallow anymore public radio, so I'm in Jared's room using his computer and eating food that only boys would eat - ie. blonde oreos. And trying to figure out how I'm simultaneously going to a) afford and b) squeeze my fat ass into Diesel's new fall stuff. Ah Monday. Back to the gym day. Damn.

Rilo Kiley, I heart you.

This makes me shake my MoneyMaker.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Jared's Photo of Me


Lazy Days



Listening - Mel Torme - Don't Get Around Much Anymore
Wearing - Jeans, Jared's socks, navy wool sweater, silver loop necklace my sister got me for my last birthday
Eating - Drinking raspberry zinger tea.. not going to lie, also just ate a fudgesicle.
Watching - "The Layer Cake"

We woke up at noon, got out of bed at 1:30, went back to bed at 2, made a portabello mushroom and goatcheese omelet at 3, walked down to the art gallery at 4:30, wandered around, Jared bought me an amazing orange Gerbera, we walked to the grocery store for ravioli and had a big candlelit dinner of pasta.. It was such a great day. It's been a while since we didn't have to rush anywhere, do anything major, be anywhere at a certain time.. I just made raspberry zinger tea, and we're going to cuddle up and watch a movie. I'm.. blissfully happy.


Thursday, September 06, 2007

Views.





Starbucks when I left today, Jared and I relaxing and laughing, and my new bookcase and wall art.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Efficient.

I really love how efficient I get when I'm on an emotional high-ish. Mostly on the downslope, I get these really super productive days where I get SO very much done - today was a lucky one of those days. I've done all the primary and secondary readings for my classes tomorrow and the next day (which I'm sure will give me nightmares.. Being and Nothingness scares the CRAP out of me..), I've mailed, e-mailed, painted posters, done office work in advance, and still found time to run to Future Shop to get a recorder for my Lorkovic lectures, AND make dinner for Jared and Holly. And go to school. It's momentarily frightening, because I know what it is prelude to (a day of exhaustion, tears and abject inefficiency) but I'm trying to hold myself on the cusp and heave myself upwards a little to keep up the momentum.
I feel a lot better now that my room is clean too. I've actually cleaned up, not just rearranged in piles, so I actually have a bedside lamp, a clock within reach (I get these weird anxiety attacks if I can't find out what time it is.. and when Jared stays he sleeps closest to the clock and has to contend with me reaching over a million times a night to see what time it is.) .. so I feel better. I forget what a sanctuary my room is for me, until I don't have it and it's this raging disaster.. I even managed to fit in time today to make magnets for my fridge that has none, and looked up what art courses are being offered at the gallery this fall. Jared keeps telling me I need to start painting/drawing again, I think he's right.
Had a really nice Cointreau and chedder chicken, with wild rice and my goat cheese and strawberry salad with balsalmic vinegar/garlic and olive oil dressing. I love feeding people. Holly knows that when I'm ultimately stressed and falling apart I tend to start cooking for people and taking care of others.. and I think she loves it. *laugh*
Mother Theresa musta been a freakin' nut job, taking care of all those people. *laugh*

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Art O' the Day


Resurrexit - Anselm Kiefer.
This is one of the only exhibits that I've seen more than twice, and bought the book as well.

But Then I Laughed REALLY hard..

..when I realised I was standing in line at the check-out of Safeway with soy milk, bananas and condoms. *snort*

oh dear.

I think I've pretty much just lived on coffee, my fake fingernails that I've gnawed off, and the occasional cigarette for the past 5 days. I forgot to have a cup of coffee this morning and now I have a roaring headache, bad enough that it feels like my head is going to implode or explode, I haven't decided which. I am so exhausted and anxious, and actually think my heart keeps speeding up and making me nervous. I don't know whats wrong with me. I'm getting the psycho feeling again.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

More Planting Pics




Planting in a burn pile - you get a serious case of BPL, Burn Pile Lung, but you also plant a lot of trees in really nice soft land.
My friend Leanne's last day on a really horrible buggy block on our last day of spring plant.
Topless planting - Megan, out checker, snuck up on me. No bugs, some duck tape, and it's.. nice.

Friday, August 31, 2007

This dress makes my boobs look small. Psych.



Jared, myself and my brother.. or.. Two Giants and a Midget.. Or, my boyfriend dumped me for my brother and this is the last picture. Haha. No really, they see each other more.
AND.. Myself, Jared and Holly. Or.. no, I won't go there... ha ha.. er... ha.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Cabin One


The Girls of Cabin One.
*hahaha.. just to clarify, these are the girls when I was camping this weekend, NOT treeplanting. (there definately WEREN'T any cabins out there.)

Lost. Haha.

I was just wondering around campus for the past 20 minutes trying to find my way back home. And this is my third year here. Our Residence is at the west end of the college on 110th St. The whole school runs East to West with major thouroughfares through the middle. But the library, the central point, is under some construction, and I get so lost and turned around.. So this morning, I noted the smell of popcorn, and decided that that's the way I would know if I was going in the right direction... Oh god. There were two popcorn stands, at different points in the school. I seriously walked through the library 5 times before I finally flipped out and pretended I was a new student and needed help. And a big bag of popcorn.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Conversation #2

Andrea- You really don't have to be here while I clean up my messy room. Even if I am lonely.
Jared - Keeping you from being lonely is half of why I'm here.
Andrea- Whats the other half?
Jared - So I'm not lonely.
Andrea - (silence)
Andrea - Can you take out the trash?
Jared - Yeah. I'll be right back.

Mission Hill Vineyard






On an afternoon off, we visited the Mission Hill Winery in Westbank...
1. Me, looking dreamily off into the distance, thinking about all the wine I want to buy..
2. My perfect partner.
3. Hollie and I in the vines.. it kinda looks like a wedding photo..
4. "What are the boys doing.."..... "Oh no, one is taking a picture!"
5. They're looking at the piano that's signed by Bono, Elton John and other.. ahem "greats".. I'm posing under the 1.25 million dollarish Marc Chagall painting that hangs unframed in their tasting gallery..

Sunday, August 26, 2007

The Conversation that Just Happened

Andrea- Shit, don't step on all my stuff.
Jared - Then where else am I going to step?
Andrea - (silence, looks at her room that still isn't unpacked, and you can't see the floor for all the clothes.)
Andrea - (silence)
Andrea - Well, at least take your shoes off.
Jared - Eew.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Back to camping

Going out of the city for a little while, camping for the next 2 days. Could be worse.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Better-ish


Ok, better. I went and painted mugs with Jared for our social event tonight, then did a little retail therapy with Ian. Which may have also involved a little chocolate covered banana therapy.. Came home and joined half our crew at the bar for drinks and a laugh. Yeah.. Better.

(Jared would like to point out that he is NOT three.. he just doesn't have very strong mug painting skills. I'll post pictures after they're glazed and fired.)

Beer. It Helps. Even when it's in cheese.

Sometimes I don't know what I'd do without J. He basically kept me from crying all day yesterday with these stupid facebook messages and funny faces from across the room. Then he held me down and tickled my feet, dressed me up like a hood rat and marched me to the liquor store, bought me beer, made me nachos with Amber Ale Cheddar, let me win at Mario Cart and let me cry like a baby at 300. And then let me wake him up at 4 in the morning when my nightmares were so bad that I had to turn on all the lights in the house and hide in his armpit. And then told me he was awake anyways.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Painfully Addicted

I don't want to say how long I watched this for..
Just a few more seconds..
One more set..
Well.. Maybe another..

Black Out

Well the power is out, Jared is out with Efa, my battery on my computer is almost out.. and I'm so exhausted that I think it would suffice to say that I'm almost out.

For some reason, that sadness is creeping again. Perhaps explaining my pathetic lack of a)blogging b)personal hygiene and c) caring about a and b. *chuckle* I always feel like.. you know when a pie starts to get dry and the filling starts to shrink and peel away from the crust? *laugh* That's kinda what I feel like. Poor Jared is left trying to prop me up and cheer me up as much as he can while I flop around pretending to be a parapalegic and refusing to get into the shower. *sigh* Poor guy.

First day of training for the new RA's today. I really need to work on not being so damn judgemental right off the bat. I always leave room for my impressions to change, I give people many many (tooooo many) chances.. But I swear. These kids.. they are just kids.. Well, lets just say I had to go "Putt and Glo" neon golf tonight.

Which is pretty much where I found out exactly how dirty my hair was. Whoops.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Fake Bits

So I went out with Holly today and got my nails done. You know, those pretty yet pretentious fake acrylic nails, nice white tips - very wasp, very... bitchy. The girl, lets call her.. oh, Thao, told me I had rough man hands. Uh huh. But at the end, I had "feminine woman hands". It actually feels like I have a split personality starting at my wrists. I'm afraid that I'm going to start taking Valium, drinking at noon and eating little cucumber sandwhiches with these hands, and I won't be able to do a god-damn thing about it. Yup, call me Kitty. Or at least my hands.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Why Does Wes Anderson Have To Be So GOOD.

The Darjeeling Limited

Do Not Do Drugs

..or at least not when you watch this.

Some Planting Pics






A really tough block.. I think I MAY be crying in that picture..
My friend Seb and I on the last day, after we planted our last rookie trees together.. and then proceeded to drink almost an entire bottle of Southern Comfort...
I could fit in tree boxes. People find this hilarious.
Drinking beer after a particularily hard day.. where I might have mentally quit 12-30 times.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Penance.

I've just bought a bookshelf to put in my room so I don't have a leaning tower of Poe stacked on my desk anymore. Yes. More shit to add to the shit that I have in my room. J gets in tomorrow night, which means that I have until Saturday morning to both lose 10 lbs and get my house in order. So, I've left my dissasembled bookshelf in the hall and picked up the computer to escape. Ish.

I've been thinking the past few days of my choices of summer work - they've gotten progressively harder and more demanding, and slowly my off-summer work has started to do the same. And honestly, I've been contemplating the idea of pennace.

After years of dealing with depression (that I didn't know I was dealing with and didn't know was depression), leaving a boyfriend and a home and a cat, running away to India, I returned stable enough to work on my own, and took a job in the oilfield.

After I cheated on Bryan, the months that followed were sheer agony. I developed ulcers, lost copious ammounts of weight, slept all the time, cried at the drop of a hat, mentally self-flaggellated with texts on virtue etc etc. And took up tree planting this summer.

I find even in smaller circumstances, it's the harder tasks I'll take on after perceived moral lapses - as small as forgetting to pay for a coffee results in inadvertantly long workouts - ridiculous things. I thought about it tree planting.

Heaven forbid I ever kill somebody. I might get in shape and start working in a mine or something.

Just something I've been thinking about.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Go Figure.

Had a terrible nights sleep in my own bed last night. I was too comfortable and it was too loud. TOO comfortable.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Summer in Retrograde - Belated Post #1 - The Mercenaries.

They arrived, somewhat like marauding Huns, in the middle of the night. We woke surrounded by them - a new encampment of ancient mini vans and VW campers circled us, gear stacked at the ready. They arrived to breakfast with matching mohawks, smelling of whiskey and incense and weed, with narrow eyed and smiling - mercenaries in our tree war.
***
As far as my experiences with war go, it would be remiss to imply that I have any. Yes in those trucks in the morning the air of some sort of battle, mostly mental, is there. The clattering of gear being tossed into trucks, shovels and water bottles smashing together, tree boxes heaved and handed planter to planter out of the reefer, into the mist , all make your ears cringe at first, the first day, the first shift. Rookies are loaded overdressed and scared into the trucks with the same lack of ceremony as the tree boxes, they too making nervous noises that will grate for the first while. Those beside you rip duct tape in small screaming strips, the smell of sulfuric tape mixes with black coffee and rank boots as rookies are shown with as much patience how to tape their fingers; given brief invaluable tips that they invariably forget and figure out themselves mid-season, only briefly remembering somebody may have already told them and yet congratulating themselves on what they've discovered. Weary vets who know the drill bullshit over old seasons and smile knowingly at the too nice gear and clean rookies that are ramrod straight in beside them, while they curl to doorjambs and each other in an attempt to nap on the drive.
The noise is played in reverse as the trucks rumble to a stop on the dirt roads- gear, shovels and water bottles are wrenched rapidly from the back, the continuous thud of tree boxes being unloaded hand to hand and thrown to the ground plays in the background. Boots are pulled on, hands given a final lash of tape, rotting gloves pulled on top of that. Slowly, loaded with trees, dull and monochromatic with dirt, each is dispatched to pieces, shovels customized like guns - each glinting and flashing like muzzles. Once, sure and swift followed by a flash of green and a kick by the vets, once, twice, three times, slow and inaccurate by the rookies.
***
They didn't arrive unbidden. Painfully we've moved from block to block, tallies small and amounting to less everyday than we'd hoped. Encouragement, duct tape, coffee - all three are gone to be replaced by silence, callouses and whiskey. Zanzibar, rumour has it, has finished for the season, millions in, and dispersed. Rumours of possible friends, 6 planters, give momentary hope, lighter bags, faster steps. They're coming.
***
Everything has assumed a pace, unbidden, unwanted and inevitable. Plodding evenings with the same colours on your plate, nutrition lacking diversification from the shift before. Wagers are put on one of 6 choices - chicken, beef, pork, pasta, Indian or Mexican. Both ethnicity's are promptly removed after a day of low production yet high output. Bed. Wake. Cold. Peel the clothes from the bottom of your sleeping bag where they've garnered some warmth from your fermenting feet and squirm on dirty layer after layer. Breakfast. Truck. Plant. Repeat.
***
They're obviously unwell, to help us. Burnt out and propelled by what one of them has brewed in the back of their van, they move - tanned and leathery, through us. 10. 7. 8 year vets. Without effort, hung over, they plant 35000 trees in a day, sweating pepperminty gasoline whiskey around the campfire. They eat less, sleep less, drink more, smoke more, and plant more than any of us have seen. They are the only planters that pull their gear at the end of the day, resting it beside their vans, like sleeping with their favorite guns.
***
Then they leave. Grass matted where they were, whiskey bottles leaned against trees. Breakfast, truck, plant. Repeat.

Road Trip(ping)

It's about 30 degrees outside the car, and damn well nearing 40 inside. I'm in the back in flood pants, a bathing suit top and a tiara plowing through "To Kill a Mockingbird" and attempting to ameliorate my feelings towards the current heat with those that Scout must have in the deep south in the summer. As of right now, the cracks between my toes are swelling and the pages of my book are buckling under the sweat of my fingers, and neither are helping to lend sympathy to Ms. Finch.
Everything in here smells slightly of sunscreen and licorice and skunk, with nectarines every once in a while when the smushed escapee gets nudged under the seat in an attempt to redirect the sweat thats pooling in the back of my knees.
Each place that we've passed through have a prevalence of one type of a shop or another - Prince George has a number of pawn shops and thrift stores, Fort St. James had pizza and hardware shops, Quesnel ice cream and tattoo parlours.. poor Williams Lake and its abundance of corn bread women just had an over abundance of lingerie stores. So far, the highways have offered up nothing of interest, just mile after mile of incredibly depressing landscape in the hue of dead, dry and dying - and the occasional ominous cherry stand.
Inside however, crammed among backpacks, shovels, old books, new books, dirth/clean and every state in between, our three aching bodies are trading massages for um fillled screamers, magazines for books and brief naps for time in the drivers seat. The impossibilty of driving down the middle of BC in a non air-con Subaru from the 80s without being parboiled.. is dawning on all of us.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Done.

After an evening of Sodom and Gamorrah in the Woods (which sounds like a delightful play), we are officially done. Done the planting, the year ender, the sun burn, the bug bites, the 5:30 mornings, the 11pm evenings, the stress, the trees, the shitter digging the beer drinking the the... everything. It's finished. We (being Matt Hollie and I) packed the Subaru to the gills, said our good byes, and left.
In such an environment, you're thrown into sheer and utter exhaustion with people that you don't know, and forced.. encouraged... find it necessary.. to make friends. And all the masks and niceties and whatnot.. you just don't have the energy for. So you discard them, and what's really left, is you. And only you. Which means that while you make friends, better friends, stronger friends, faster - the people you hate on day two, you really hate on day 78.
But it's done. It's made me stronger, smarter, made me work harder, drink harder, laugh harder, cry harder.. than anything I've done in my life. And baring that, it made me a fair chunk of change and gave me a suntan.
We're headed to Kelowna, should be there by this evening. Miss you all.

Friday, July 27, 2007

No balls, no walls.

Just exhaustion. Sheer, unbelievable, unshakable exhaustion that is slowly but surely grinding me into the mud. BUT, it's for 3 more days. I can do that.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

8 days and Counting.

Like most of my life lately, this blog will have to be fast, dirty and probably shallow. Har har. It's a treeplanting reference. Shallow trees.. *sigh*
I'm 8 days away from being done. Which alternately feels just as long as if we were at the start of the season, and surprisingly short. I've been out here for 3 months now. I'll have to actually type up some good blogs that tell you what the hell I've actually been doing like - learning to appreciate Ballantynes in the morning, learning why people don't wear thongs out here, getting leaches in strange and startling places, being pulled out of a bog by a New Zealander..
I wish I had more time to tell you.. it's been so much better. Ok. It hasn't. But it's been bearable and I've taken a lot of Motrin today. And the rain stopped. Which vastly improves just about anything. Oh. Except for the peeling blistering mess on my back. Which brings me to a new lesson- It's not just the bugs you need to worry about when planting topless. No, it's the sun too. Mom, thanks for the SPF 60, my nipples are happy. My back.. not so much. Balls to the wall they say - I'm almost done.